I think I'm just gonna put myself first. I mean, I know you're supposed to do that anyways, but I usually used to just put people before me; parents, friends, even strangers. I liked to act like my dad, helping people, and always being there for them, no matter what. But that's just gonna hurt me, because WHEN I'm there for some people (best friend, or a special person) I expect the same thing from them, it's wrong, but I can't help it. And I've realized that I'll always get let down no matter what, because not everyone knows what you're expecting from them. Even though some should know. Eh I don't care, anymore. Whatever happens, happens. I live for myself, and only myself, not gonna let anyone ruin it, unless I finally find that ONE person who'll know what I mean by all this, and someone who'll always be following along with my thoughts. Either way, I'm not gonna let people bring me down.
Changing the subject.. I just got back from the gym, and I'm pretty sore. I guess this is what I get for being out of shape. So I've decided to go to the gym 3 or 4 times a week, just so I can get ready for track and actually be in a lot of events this year. As of right now my goals are:
1) Get straight A's.
2) Keep exercising.
3) Look into colleges that benefit me.
4) Have an awesome relationships with both my parents.
5) Find a new job.
More to come....
So if I accomplish one of those, I'm just gonna cross it down, and it's gonna make me feel just THAT much more good about myself (=
Ugh, I gotta study for my history test on Tuesday, and do some physics. I may have to go to my physics AO to see how I'm supposed to do all this crap on my worksheets. Aw my nail broke.. haha I don't usually whine about stuff like that, but I'm kinda disappointed now haha. I gotta go take a shower cuz I stank. Hahaha. && I gotta go to walmart too, so I'm gonna stop writing, laterr. (=
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