Monday, October 25, 2010

Day 23- I have my reasons


Ahhhh my head is full of hatred/love all sort of crap! Today's been a long day and I am ready to just lay down and fall asleep[= 
Today i kinda learned (again) that i should NEVER believe someone, and it's really easy for someone to say they care about you soo much and that they would do anything to be with you.. well yeah that's all bullshit. Right when they find someone else, they're gone, you turn into dust in their minds. It's not surprising, since really 4/5 guys or girls always end up being fake little jerks. ( I would use more/strong words but i will do that later on ). Haha. I'm trying to just let go of EVERYTHING, like seriously, everything. I'm telling myself "you don't deserve someone who's gonna try you butter you up with their sweet words and then BAM just throw you under the bus and let me get crushed into million pieces." It's just not good for me to keep being upset. I'm over it, yeah over it. It didn't happen, they'd rather be with someone else, so good. I hope they go out for 4 fucking years. Actually I hope they get married. 



Nah they can go fuck themselves I don't give a damn[= I'm not that nice. I'm not nice after a certain level. 
But hey again, "ITS WHATEVER" righhhht??? Yea.

So yeah I still haven't thought of a way to get my anger out from today and other stuff. I think I'm gonna go play paint ball with ian and brennen and some other people, it'll be fun. And then saturday i'm gonna dance (yay, the number one thing that makes my anger go away!) So that should be fun too. 

BLubber, family guys so funny i love it. So im gonna go watch the rest, yayy byeee.


P.S.  I might turn this into a private thing, idk yet i'm thinking about it. 
&& Current Song I'm Listening tooo isssss ::::: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9RUSRxTpI80&ob=av3e

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