Day 18- "It don't do me any good It's just a waste of time What use is it to you What's on my mind If ain't coming out We're not going anywhere So why should I say anything at all"

Today went by too slow. And that speaker made me really sad, i felt really bad. I don't like seeing people like that, i know i shouldn't feel sorry for him because he's accomplished so much throughout his life, and he still is. I don't know.. I just wanted to get up and give him and biiiiig hug, i loved how his attitude was completely positive, it that was me, and i were born like that, i would probably cry myself to sleep every night, and i sure as hell wouldn't be able to accomplish so much. People need to take their lives more seriously. Like me, I can't be worrying about someone who's not gonna come back. I have to focus with school. From now on, it just has to be school school school work school school school cod school school school tumblr school school school. That's it. Not gonna stress about anything or anyone anymore, at all. Ugh this is allll easier said than actually done. Doesn't mean i'm not gonna TRY to go along with it. I'm gonna try to do all this stuff like i wrote, baby steps baby steps. Ha wow. 

So I have a test on friday, with this said, i should really be filling out the rest of my history study guide because i didn't get to finish it because i had too many things on my mind. Soo yup. I'll do it in 30 minutes, I have time. It's kind of weird writing this, I feel like, no one reads it, except for someone. But that all changed so, yeah, no one. I mean it was meant to be only for me anyways, so it's not like it's a big deal. Hopefully i'll actually remember to write these, haha. Since i'm soo forgetful. 

ANYWAY, I went to T.J. Maxx today, gave them my crap and they said "We'll call you as soon as possible" but then again, they all say this. I just hope i get the job. If i don't... then i guess i have to apply somewhere else. But the worse part is the waiting. I'm SO impatient it's annoying, I can't wait for anything.. at all. 

Blah i'm hungry, for some reason i've lost 4 pounds.. dunno why.. Oh yeah, maybe it's cuz of that STUPID TRAINER. Damn! He makes me work my butt off! It's so annoying, I almost blacked out from it all yesterday, but that was cuz i only had crackers before i left. It's okay though, I'm getting in shape[=

GOT THAT SHIKIRA BODY!! Hahahah I wish, hopefully i'll get there soon=D

Gonna go do homework, LATER,